Just a warning: To my Dad, my family my friends. This semester hasn’t been the greatest academically. I will have more credits to show then I did last semester. I mean I dam well better, no excuse this time – not that the excuses mattered anyway. I’m at risk for loosing my financial aid because of the grades. Unfortunately it will be several weeks until I can know for sure what will happen.
I just want to say that I’m waking up. I’ve found the spark that’s my confidence, my ambition, my drive.
I feel really silly for saying this.
For the past almost 2 years I can’t say I’ve felt… great. Today (tonight – its late – I’ve been thinking all night) I see some hope for me.
This winter break I want to work a lot. My personal bank accounts have fallen quite low and I want to work them back up myself. I also plan on establishing some credit as it appears I have none. Or at least not enough to buy a stupid cell phone.
I probably shouldn’t say all this now… Its late, I’m tired, and I’m almost sure I’m less coherent then I think I am. I just don’t want anyone to worry. It’s not your place anymore. I’m growing on this life thing, its not easy but I’m far from failing. I just want to say that…
Good night.
-Francis
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It’s nice to hear you’re burning again. Fire can level even the most imposing, complex structures and reduce them to their purest elements, which are dispersed into the open air, not having ceased to exist, but rather ceasing to interfere with the here and now and clearing your view of what may come. Once the smoke clears, the sky is unobstructed and the horizon is endless.
Posted 09 Dec 2003 at 12:55 pm ¶We are confident that you will arrive at a happy solution, and we love you.
Posted 09 Dec 2003 at 2:53 pm ¶congrats, man…
Posted 11 Dec 2003 at 10:17 am ¶keep on slugging along. i know you’ll make something great out of this.
good luck.
if there’s anything i can do to help…well…heh